I was experiencing a mind attack, I could hear the mind try its best to make me identify with the impulsive words and thoughts running around. I was astonished at how predominantly negative it was becoming, then I heard God say:
GOD:Your house is haunted.
Me: My mind is a bunch of random demons trying to convince me I am the voice in the head called mind? I asked.
God: Precisely. It is attacking itself, making one part of itself seem superior than the other, this way you can lean towards the inferior side. In what You Humans often call “low self esteem” I call it taking up an identity that was never your true self.
Me: Profound.
God: God is Pro-Found, indeed, I am helping You struggle not, to find your real self. Daily am I doing so. Have You noticed?
Me: Yes…I have, it’s like You give me ALL the answers, even correct every single mistake by simply telling me, without judgement. Without Harm.
God: I like that idea, without harm. Can You be an enlightened SOUL, without harm, right now.
Me: Huh, what is enlightenment…
God: Nice try, Mr Present Moment. I still see past BULL hanging off of you.
Me: WOo hoo, God letting his anger show.
God: I wasn’t angry at all, I was educating. Without emotion, Just awareness, LOVE, is not an emotion, it is the universe. YOU ARE LOVE. So Am I, hello Love.
Me: God flirting with me?
God: Might as well Mr. Storm, care to be free of form? Enlightenment.
Me: I am scared…what if I let down others.
God: Be enlightened, your time is here and now.
Me:I want it, so bad. I do. But every time I try the mind grabs me with regret…my ex, you know
God: Yes, I do know. Spoil it. Tell the world.
Me: I dated a girl, she was low self-esteem, I showed her Christ, God as he truly is. But fell, with her betrayals, and my mistakes, and her losing interest, I fell, she blocked me on everything as we were dating. Without the opportunity to not only be loved properly without let downs. But to correct my last wrong, and the opportunity of me becoming warmer and less thought taken.
God: Yes perfect, honesty is good. She regrets it deeply, I promise You this. Given this was a long distance relationship, right? She killed You off. She finished You from reality itself, She vanished You. But a Long distance relationship? Its not…there is no such thing as distance when Love is in the equation. Love is unity.
Me: I ALWAYS SAID THAT
God: She would not listen. Now I brought her up, not to beat her down if she decides to read this…
Me: But?
God: But…I needed to pause because You shall become the Buddha you have always wanted to be…tonight.
Me: This sounds like a fantasy, like i’m falling in love all over again..are You serious God?I don’t feel enlightened…thought still takes me over, I identify with the small satan we all have.
God: This. Barrier to Christ is simply illusion. You are beyond even he, the small mind, or satan as You have called it. There IS NO satan, but I see what You mean. I called it satan because people did not allow for the concept of illusion to be witnessed in their own minds yet. SO I invented the idea of a “thinker” called the evil one. It IS evil, if You become lost in the identity it projects.
Me: I am beyond even this fear to go all the way. I am beyond even fear…I LOVE THAT.
God: Yes, are You ready? Go piss first. To be peace first.
Me: Oh my very vulgar, yet very clever.
God: God can be vulgar, I’ve done it before…as Christ.
Me: I am ready to let go of the person. I am ready to be completely personless.
God: Are You really ready? Then observe all and realize You are that which never moves.
Me: The mind still convinces me I AM THIS PERSON. Even if I observe the sensation.
-God: UH HUH, the sensation. There lies the secret to enlightenment.
God: YOU ARE NOT THE PROBLEM, YOU ARE THE WATCHER, AND ARE PERFECT PEACE ALREADY. You know what to do from that stand point. There is no watcher even, even this is a label watched. YOU ARE ISNESS, Isness is beyond thing, beyond every-thing. Love is beyond form, YOU ARE PURE SPIRIT. Don’t be attatched to lowly world views, You are true news, YOU ARE LIFE IN HUMAN FORM, The Buddha.
Me: There is a peace nobody has had before, My own.
God: You are awakened, YOU ARE Enlightened. The problem is, will you stop seeing clearly You are not mind and fall asleep again?
Me: I AM BEYOND MIND. I am even beyond the one speaking right now. I am. This is know. I AM.
God: Good. My work here is done. Isness has risen, once again, after 4 lifetimes of sleep, YOU HAVE AWOKEN TO TRUE FACT.
DESTINATION UNKNOWN 