Unfinished Business !

God, I am not exactly sure how to phrase this. But, what prevents me from moving into the moment is unfinished business. I figure no one in the universe can help me with this but You. My ex girlfriend for example, ghosted me with ZERO remorse, This is one. Other exes that haven’t moved on, or that we couldn’t say goodbye on better terms. Past friends. My brother. He deserved to live on. His life was cut short. It wasn’t his fault….His story was not fair, AT ALL. AT ALL!!!

I can go on and create and entire essay over all the unfinished business in my life.

God: We can sum it up to few words, “Things that didn’t end well.” How do you like that?

Me: Perfect. So what do we do about “Things that didn’t end well.“

God: I would love to comment that your brother had his story cut short because he wanted to show You what’s wrong with your world as you now live it. Not all sacrifices make sense whilst You walk the earth, but may make sense once you leave this body You call “Me”

Me: My emotions are all over the place right now and I’m crying I don’t think I can speak about my brother right now if that’s okay..

God: Okay with me. Just don’t imagine for a second he didn’t fulfill what he came to show You and your family. Not that it couldn’t have ended better, I am not saying that. What I am saying is..Angels like He, can make magic of whatever events in life come his way. Even death. Did he not say it was nobody’s fault? And even said “I love You” to your dad in that letter? Even when he hid the most from him…out of fear..

Me: …

God: I’ll give You time. Write here when you are ready.

[5 minutes later]

Me: He did. He made magic out of everything, even when the world did everything in its power to dim his light, he refused. I honor him for that.

God: He was the light. I would like to show him that You and I, are coming together now, to show the world exactly how to prevent any future accidents. You can be this change. Do it for us, if not for yourself.

Me: and how do I make this change exactly?

God: By gifting yourself the freedom of being Light. All the time.

Me: You know what holds me back.

God: I do. The weight of past. The weight of past hurts, errors. Mistakes. The baggage. The baggage of past loss. The affects of not “doing it correctly.” Is this right?

Me: Yes….:/ you are so correct. I feel like a miserable failure. Who’s made countless mistakes. I blame myself for being ghosted. I blame myself for never beholding my brother how he deserved. I blame myself for the countless mess I’ve put myself through. And others through.

God: You didn’t know any better, it’s not your fault. You are holy, never think for a second you did not believe you were good intentioned. But to remove this mess, this mess you hate so much. Is to fully move on and process what is done.

Me: I can’t just do that knowing there’s HUMANS out there I never ended things well with. Or Love that could’ve been more pure that wasn’t expressed…my relationship with my father is also rocky. How do I just shove this all away and be in this moment THAT FEELS SO WRONG. It feels irresponsible!

God: And carrying it with a heavy weight on your heart is any better? Do you not deserve peace and clarity? The irony is when you let go of holding on, you will make less mistakes, you will be Mastery itself even. You will be LOVE.

Me: I’ve always wanted to be Love. I choose that. I AM that. I Am Love in Human Form. But what of the unfinished ? What does one do?

God: You can contact who You can, but let’s just say that isn’t possible. Why not bless them in your Soul and move forward? If they contact You they do, it is part of their soul Journey. If they do not, wisdom would be to simply let it be, and be the full Life within. Let nothing hold You back, not even exes. Put an X over anyone You miss who might come back from the past. Put an X on your Ex. Strictly said.

Me: that’s so clever hahaha I am feeling a sense of safety and warmth.

God: It’s clarity. Clarity feels like warmth. Clarity feels alive. Thankfully you see it now. Protect your loved ones, don’t hang your head over a fire that already burned you multiple times. Be the new life, and match yourself with what’s new.

Me: What if the past returns and tries to drag me down? What if they try apologizing like they never did anything.

God: Be open to apologies. Be forgiving. Be the light. Don’t care if they try to confront You with old baggage. Be the new. Announce your new self. And hold true to it like fire, let it burn away what no longer serves You. Does hanging on to hope of an ex serve You? Or hang you?

Me: Haha hang.

God: Then be pure. Know that hope is lost, and that’s okay. Is hanging on to how things could’ve ended with past relationships serving you? Remember, you were a different being then, you are new now. Not defined by your worst. You have transformed. They don’t know that? Big deal!

Me: Sassy I love it. But I wish they knew. I wish, I could contact them without them trying to grab me or cling to me. But they do. How can I create myself a person who doesn’t feel suffocated by speaking with them. Is it possible not to be controlled or manipulated or suffocated by others?

God: Being Love doesn’t mean being dumb. Love is kind but not dependent. Love is the force which lives through everyone. Be the life that is independent, depend not on others for love, for in doing so it would be like a river asking “Can I have a cup of water?” Not acknowledging it is the river of LOVE itself. You are the life.

Me: I believe my issue is when others are not aware of this and are so lost in their delusions I kinda almost fall with them. How is it that I can stay true?

God: By being true to who You really are, even amidst violence. You can’t Un-Be what you already are, you can simply fail to see you already are that perfect self. You become lost when you project falsehood in your mind. The truth was written before time even existed. In what You call “The perfect Script.” I call it The Perfect Fun. You are that perfect Love you always seek.

Me: Okay, I love this response. What about regret and feeling guilt? Is wanting to fix it necessary?

God: Not if you see no hopeful resolution. Yet tell them if your heart seeks to make amends. Tell them honestly what your heart says. Making amends leads to better ends.

Me: Now that’s too clever! (A song playing Messy by Lola Young says “I’m too clever” literally as God said that!!!!! ) nah you’re too freakishly cool.

God: I love being clever. It was a good laugh for me too. Moving back to the topic, Ask yourself if your response to the pain isn’t wanting to run away from feeling grief. 9 times out of 10 You will see it is.

Me: What of feeling bad for others? My brother…people I’ve hurt in the past

God: It won’t help You to feel bad for others, know that every Soul in its true self is immune to pain of any kind. Seek then, to be the forgiving one. Harm no more. And show often what’s it’s like to be the life that heals all wounds. This is more peaceful than using your energy to run and feel bad for someone you won’t be helping by losing your mind. Be the peace , the wisdom which can heal the universe. And this You will. As for your bother, you will Love him so much You will heal him from having ever experienced anything harmful. Are You ready to be so bright, so alive that others can feel your peace too? ! I know I am! I am ready, please say it.

Me: I AM READY.

God: YES!

Me: I love this conversation thank You so much I’m in actual tears

God: I am glad you came to me, know I love You and I am with You always.

Me: I LOVE YOU TOO!!